Piyaar

 Assalam o alaikum hope are all doing good m apny bary m btana chahti hon ye shaid kesi trah ka confession na ho lkn mujy py jo guzra usy ly kr kuch logo k liye sabaq zror ho k wo zindagi kbhi apni olad ko youn kamtar na smjhein. M ab 26 saal ki hon lkn jb m 6 sal ki thi tb bht bimar ho gai thi us k bad jb m recover hoi Mera body weight brhta gya m bachi thi sab bachny m mujy Kuch ahsas ni tha lkn us time py jb aik insan apny bachny kheel kod m zindagi guzar rha hota tb sy mujy yehi kehna shuru kr dia gya moti ho gai ho kam khaya kro din ba din moti hoti ja rye ho aik bachy ko ye ahsas ni hota us ka wzn brh rha ya 8 9 saal ki umer m wo kesy wzn kam kry mujy ye bahir k logo ny ni khud k khandan or ghr k logo ny bolna shuru kr dia mujy khandan m different different namo sy bulaya jany lga like elephant bhalo or mujy kaha jany lga ye sab mazak m bolty tang krty tmhy lkn us bat ko m janti thi mujy kitna bura lgta jb koi mujy esy bulata ya mera Allah janta m kitna roti thi raaton m. Es chez ny mujy etna hurt kiya k m ny khi ana jana e chor dia mera bht dil krta tha jaon lkn jb b sochti thi whn esy bulaya jaye ga m ni jati thi es trah aik family function m koi 5 6 bachy zor zor sy sab k smny mujy elephant elephant bula rhy thy m us time 10 sal ki thi mujy us chez sy etna hurt howa k next time m un ki shadi m gai e ni or meri family gai bs sirf es liye k whn mujy esy namo sy bulaya jata. Dukh es chez ka ni log bolty thy dukh es chez ka k ghr k members ka b yehi hal tha meri mother na jany mujy khud kin kin sy bulati thi jo k mujy bht hurt krta tha lkn bachpan tha rony dhony m e guzr gya lkn es chez ny mera confidence kha lia jb m ny khi ana jana e ni tha to kya pta chlta logo sy kesy bat krni. Mujy meri mother ny wesy pyar ni kiya jesa m chahti thi aj b shaid wo wesa ni krti jb mery smny apni dosri olad ko pyar krti mera dil andr e andr rota drum dhool bhens moti elephant na jany kya kya mujy bulaya jata tha khair bat yhn khtm ni hoti time k sath meri height b etni ni brhi i am 149cm tall to tb bolna shuru kr dia gya tmhara to rishta e bht mushkil hona tmhari to dosri behny pyari b thi lambi b thi un ka ho gya tmhara mushkil sy hona q k na tm pyari ho tm moti b ho tm choti b ho ye mery bhai k alfaz jo m ny suny or us din m bhot roi ye sab chezy mery sath etni emotionally connect ho chuki k en chezo ko zara sa yad kr k ankho m anso aa jaty. (Khety na jo pyar insan ko ghr m ni milta phr wo un ko bahir talash krta or wo etna bura hota k usy tabah kr deta ) Mery sath b esa e howa Mobile aya hath m accounts create kiye or lrko k sath chatting shuru kr di jo pyar k alfaz ghr wlo ny ni kbhi boly wo bahir k logo ny boly m shaid ye chez explain b ni kr skti or es bat ko mazeed continue b ni kr skti k bht lambi bat ho jaye gi. Ab agr m pyari ni hon choti hon moti hon mery bachpan sy ly k aj tk kesi ny kesi chez m mujy praise ni kiya es m MERI kya glti mery Allah ny mujy esa bnaya bai m apni mrzi sy esi ni bni wrna khud ko es society ki soch k mutbik pyari or lambi bna leti ta k mera rishta jldi ho jata meri behno ki trah. M ny apny bary m hamesha nagative suna hai logo sy meri khud ki soch ab wesy ho gai hai m ny kbhi Allah ki nemato ka shukr ada ni kiya blky ab khud mirror k smny khary ho jao sab sy phla kyal yehi ata tm choti ho tm pyari ni ho. M ny khud ko dosro sy compare krna shuru kr dia hai m kitni choti dosry sy m chah k b apna mind ni bdl pa rye q k bachpan sy ly k aj tk mujy yehi btaya gya flah pyara flah jesi ho jao mujy m jesi hon es trah kesi ny accept ni kiya or shaid yehi waja hai m b aj tk khud ko accept ni kr pai esy mujy aj b dosro ki trah bnna m khud kya hon m ni janti. Kahi na any jany ki waja sy mera confidence etna low k m kesi k ankho m ankhy dal k bat ni kr pati. Or ye sab bahir sy shuru ni hota apny e ghr sy hota hai. M bs etna e kehna chahon gi jo b ye prh rhy agy ja k ap b maa bap bny gy log hein ap ki olad ko batein krny k liye ap ko olad ko ye batany k liye wo kesy dikhty at least ap mat batiye ga unhy wo kesy hein ga unhy kesa hona chahye. Agr wo kaly hein choty hein moty hein pyary ni hein en ka kasoor ni ap unhy usi trah accept kijiye ga jesy wo hein unhy unhi ki body m comfortable or confident feel krwaye ga wrna un ki mental health tabha ho jaye gi. Wo ap sy door ho k glt logo m phns jaye gy jhn unhy lgy ga yhn un ki suni ja rhi ya unhy yhn wo ni bola ja rha jo us k apny bolty. M hamesha ay apni mother ki affection k liye trsi hon mujy us trah ni mili jis trah bakio ko mili aj tk meri mother jb koi mujy bat krti m ye chahti wo mujy wo bat pyar sy keh dy lkn hamesha chenkh k bolti wo mujy or kheti pyar k tmhy asr ni hota. Pyar ka muj py asr hota chenkny ka ni hota ye bat mujy ni pta wo kb smjy gi. Aik time sy jb ap aik e trah ki batein sunty aa rhy ho aik time ata shaid ap dhet bn jaty ya wo batein ap ko bother krna chor deti ab m esi bn gai hon m ny sunna chor di hai ab batein jb b mujy koi khuch bolta to kheti bolty rhy chahy meri mother e q na ho. Khair back to rishta en logo ko lgta mery kiye koi acha rishta aa e ni skta q k m achi ni m khushiya deserve e ni krti. Agr koi rishta ho mujy pasand na ho to bola jata phly khud ki traf b to dekho agly pyari lambi or smart lrkiya mangty which is true yehi hmari society hai. M ye tk janti agr mery liye koi acha rishta aa b gya to ye khud mana kr dy gy shaid hmari beti kuch acha deserve e ni krti q k us k khud k pass jo ni kuch. Aj k date m wesy m apna weight kam kr chuki hon kuch rehta b hai ye m ny es liye shaid ni kiya k m chahti thi es liye kiya k meri mother chahti thi unhy lgta tha k mery liye rishta ni aye ga lkn kuch month sy m weight kam ni kr pai to us m meri mother ny bar bar sunaya k krti ni ho kuch tmhari shadi ni krni mery sir py e ye azab rehna. Allah janta m kitna thak chuki en chezo sy m kitna ro chuki m life sy e kitna thak chuki. Agr kal wo shaks b esi e soch ka mil gya to kya kron gi. M sirf etna kehna chahti k apny bacho ko neglect mat kijiye ga sirf es waja k wo pyar ni unhy wo batein mat sunaiye ga jo log usy sunaty. Log hein ap k bachy ko wo bat sunnay k liye at least ap khud apny bachy ki wo mental health mat tabha kijiye ga.